hmmm..

heyy all!! =)

i think that i already told u that my english grammar was bad..so i learn to prove my english start from las time until now..so i think..no matter if i had a wrong grammar..except i had a wrong writing..heheh..
long time no see..
i haven't tell my journey??t's secret..only a few of my friends could know that..heheheh
heyy...how's the day going??is it good??
hmm..
i'm a little bit dizzy..hehe
yesterday my school was spared with another school..
they thought there were so much unfair thinks..
start from the referee of the game..
hmm...every referee would looked after their team..not us..
so many times they cheated..
but i really don't care..and i wish this lost..won't be the end for anything for my school..
all my friends want to show our principal and vice princpal..and all of them..that we can bring our school name's better..it such a good idea rite?
hmm..then.another problem..
one of my friend told me that he act freakly..i don't know exactly why..but i just confuse..am i did something wrong..but later i think that i also did like that before..heheh..so i just think positively..
but sometimes i can't bear it..haaaa....stress out !!=x
hmm..and then yesterday..i've asked him..like this

the story beginning ~me as yesterday
i think my mum will got angry if i home late..
and i decided to went home first..
i already said good bye to my friends..
and on the way out..i met him with the one of my friend..
i said : TJ .. BM .. i'm home first yaa..
and TJ didn't said a word.. BM said ok bye ..
then i went out from the school
but my brother sicked me to accompaned them until they done and home..
then i went in again..
i asked them to fastly out from that hell place..
then i shouted hurry up..just go back now.. i just don't want anythings going harder..
and i just talked to a few of my friends from basket ball..and they told me everything..i and also told them about our rival just say bad thing behind us..
and we home..juat started to went out..
i came close to him
and i said "am i did something wrong??sorry..i don't mean that" he said "no problem,,don't mind again"and i said "are u serious??" he said"yess..don't think anything..no problem.."
and i home..the trouble was done.
but at home..he said that i dont did anything..but when at school he said no problem..
dizzy now..
but no problem..we are a good friend :)
and now i wanna to tidying my room..byebyee :) have a nice day :)

hmmm..

ahaa??

heyy guyss :)

how the dayss goingg??its saturdayy :)time to hang out..yeyy !! and i wanna go to Kelapa Gading mall..great rite??yayayaa..its verry ussual..but i never feel bored if i go there..hmmppff..

i'll go to somewhere at 18 aug..but don't tell him that i go ..okayy??promisee..maybe i'll make my look being a sick people..i don't wanna him to know my day..it'll be greatt :)
hmm..

heyy..last 3 days..i've got a very wonderful dreamm..feel wanna jump everymoment if i remember it..
the story of me and him..actually that dream had success made me remember all of him..*stupid*
but i just thankful to Jesus for that dream..
the story was like this..

the first part ..
i was at his home and i met his parents..i know that's not his true parents..who care?
and then we all go to the different Grand Indonesia and EX..i don't know where is it clearly..but i just wanna go to the cinema..
and next day..i went to school..i run with all my friend into my class..and i stopped in front of his class..and
i said : "hey let's come with us!"
he : "no i won't"
i said = "why?"
he : '' should i go there??''
i said ="yes you should !"
he : "hey can you stop it!!"
i said="why did you act like that !! can you act as nothing happened?? i always go through your class..but why don't you do the same??mike asked me to hangout with u..and i agreed..i try to keep my shame..but why don't you do the same?*weird,i don't know why mike?*#started to cry
he : " i should act like others when you texting me..i must being some kind and outgoing boy..always understand you..and many more!!"
i said=" so..so far..i'm not texting you..i texted other boys..how hypocrite you are!! I NEVER WANT TO KNOW YOU ANYMORE!!STAY AWAY FROM ME!!#cry and shouting..
and i go.. i cry..
ever i steped in front of his class or him..i always throw my face around..and try to take other ways that can't make me meet him.. i know he cried..but i don't care..and done

the second part..
i was at the school..did my activity as ussual..and something happen that i stand outside the nine grade door..*the way if you wanna go to the laboratory*
we cheer each other..for a few second our face met and come back again to our bustle..
and i can't stand this situation and then i break it..
i said="what are your bustle about?is that your new girl??"
he: "no..i just texted my home..actually with my mom"
i said="mom?oh Jesus..she don't have any mobile phone??"
he="yes she have..just trying our new telephone..hahahaha"
and we are walk into the 9 alley while we're talking
and we stopped at the stairs in front of the mirror*way to go to sir Fired room*
and we stand adjacent..when we talked with a girls*i don't know who*
his hand started to hugs me.. and stupid on me.. do nothing...its such that i'm his girl..and we are not ashamed totally..we walked while he hold my hand..i don't know why..no body asking for that one..such that its ussual..weird rite??
and donee..

so now i remember of him .. all of him.. i just push away my feel..but they won't go away..
so..now i verry dizzy of this all..i can't ruin this feel..so i always run..
as long as i can feel allright..no matter..
aaaaa.. donee...
i wanna face this dayy...byebyeee.. take care.. beware to evil !! God Bless you :)

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Heyy guysss =)

Longg time no see :)..hows the day going??well...i'm not good for a few week...hmm...ma'am endah suggested me that i should try to write blog with english..why nott???yeyeyy..

heyy...do yo knoww??? i should go on the chinese class !! shitt..i really hate thattt..with the most bored teacher...sometimes i wanna garrote her until die !!! grr~..
but i can't do anythinggg...so i must come into that shit class...grr..
and thenn sir john asked me to join the english class...how crazy am i !!!!!! i will be so mad soon...so many teacher asked me about more classes...really dizzy ..

the other complicated problem .. my friend had a seriously problem with his best friend...actually i wanna help..but i can't do anythingg..i don't want make the situation going hard..so just calmm..and give suggestion..the best i can do :) i hope..

and thenn !! the most pique trouble is the 8 grade !!!
yes i'm the first talking the bad think to them but i already stop because i don't wanna make any any trouble...not afraid actually but just i wanna take care our relation between red cross and scout..
but the 8 grade especially the red cross one made me really2 unpatient !! they are so....i can't described those all the words...maybe P2 will going tobe pieces !!hahaha..it's not my fault..its their's fault...hahhaaa:)

the lastt...i said that i already forgot about him..yess..it is..i already..but when there are a ghost of a chance.felt like a wanna shouting every i talk with him..i wanna tell him the truth..but someone holded me..huh...wish he knows all my feels..but i know that impossible..he never ever care to me..when there is a golden opportunity i really enjoyed every moment with him..felt like i'm the only girl who can talked to him..but..it's only my dream..he won't did like that..yess..maybe i'm a fool .. i love the wrong person....but i don't know why can i love him..it's a complicated story actually...not only talked as i said to my friend..but there are some electricity leap that jump to me..i don't know why...as i said..it's really complicatedd..aishh...really can't talk aythingg..
emm...actually..i still confused with this smaller heart.. they said that i still like him..but my brain and fact said i'm not...so..who should i bealive at?? i don't knoww.. =(


andd..this is the lastt !!!
be the best fo each other especially Jesus Christ..because He's already gives the best for you =)